Firstly, I have ditched Gluten Free Geisha. I couldn't be arsed with it any more. Having one blog is hard enough without having two!
I am starting on the road to health and it is going to be hard. Not so much travelling the road but getting onto the bloody road. How does one get on?? I feel like that chic in the Labyrinth when she can't find a way out of that long maze thing when she first gets into it. I know what to do but how do I actually do it? Planning is going to be the big factor for me.
I have also restarted my Naturopathy. I KNOW!! I can't let it go. I keep trying to but it just keeps coming back so it must be meant to be.
I am about to hop on the scales for the first time in about 2 months.
And the number is:::::::::::
111.8kg!!
Not actually as bad as I thought. I had presumed it had gotten a lot higher. This time last year I was about 10kg lighter.
So my first goal is to get started.
And not on a diet but on a healthier way of life, something I can sustain and continue.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
A Fork In The Road
I was so close to giving up.
Not just blogging but on life in general. I have had a hell of a time over the last month.
I lost my job and am taking them to court for constructive dismissal. Apparently I was a bit too outspoken and my job just got taken away from me till I was sitting in an office doing noo tang!!
Have had severe family issues but I am not going into them. They were the worst though!!
I am coming out the other side, reassessing - as we are constantly doing, and I am ready to attack life again. Live it. Love it. Attract good things and repel the bad. I just signed up to complete my naturopathy. I shall fucken do it.
Blair has gone back to work, got the all clear on his lungs after coming back from Aussie with the worry of it all. Apparently it was a nipple shadow. Barstards!!
Anyway, it sent us in a new direction. We are what matter, not where we live or what we have so we are focusing on us as a family, a couple and as individuals. It will be great times ahead.
My blood tests (which I finally had) came back with exceedingly high fasting insulin levels. I am in a state of "pre diabetes" and I desperately need to address that.
My counselling finished, I discovered myself a lot but still feel that I am not quite the full package but what I did realise, is I am the ONLY person that can do anything about that. We choose how we react, act and live. I choose me.
I am sorry I haven't been around and I can promise that I probably won't get to read the 1725 posts that I haven't read yet on bloglines. That is yesterday, that is past, I won't go back. I can only go forward.
I look forward to sharing again.
Lots of love.
Jules
Not just blogging but on life in general. I have had a hell of a time over the last month.
I lost my job and am taking them to court for constructive dismissal. Apparently I was a bit too outspoken and my job just got taken away from me till I was sitting in an office doing noo tang!!
Have had severe family issues but I am not going into them. They were the worst though!!
I am coming out the other side, reassessing - as we are constantly doing, and I am ready to attack life again. Live it. Love it. Attract good things and repel the bad. I just signed up to complete my naturopathy. I shall fucken do it.
Blair has gone back to work, got the all clear on his lungs after coming back from Aussie with the worry of it all. Apparently it was a nipple shadow. Barstards!!
Anyway, it sent us in a new direction. We are what matter, not where we live or what we have so we are focusing on us as a family, a couple and as individuals. It will be great times ahead.
My blood tests (which I finally had) came back with exceedingly high fasting insulin levels. I am in a state of "pre diabetes" and I desperately need to address that.
My counselling finished, I discovered myself a lot but still feel that I am not quite the full package but what I did realise, is I am the ONLY person that can do anything about that. We choose how we react, act and live. I choose me.
I am sorry I haven't been around and I can promise that I probably won't get to read the 1725 posts that I haven't read yet on bloglines. That is yesterday, that is past, I won't go back. I can only go forward.
I look forward to sharing again.
Lots of love.
Jules
Monday, November 3, 2008
Have I Broken A Mirror??
My darling left for Brisbane yesterday.
Much emotional blubbing and hugs at the airport.
Before he went he was a bit sick. Ages okay we all had it, about 5 weeks ago. Blair never got over his and we thought his onset of hayfever may be taking over and not allowing him to mend.
On Thursday morning we went to the doctor and he mentioned that he had coughed up a big lump of blood the previous Monday. Our doctor sent him for an urgent chest x ray as he knew Blair was leaving for Aussie on Sunday.
We didn't get any call so we thought things were fine.
Tonight my doctor phoned to say that the x ray showed up a 1.2cm nodule in his left lung and that he will need to go and get further x rays in Brisbane. Blair was a smoker for about 14 years, he gave up over 5 years ago.
Just when we thought we were on the way - what the fuck is the universe sending me?
It just has to be fine, we are finally doing it.
It'll be nothing.
Much emotional blubbing and hugs at the airport.
Before he went he was a bit sick. Ages okay we all had it, about 5 weeks ago. Blair never got over his and we thought his onset of hayfever may be taking over and not allowing him to mend.
On Thursday morning we went to the doctor and he mentioned that he had coughed up a big lump of blood the previous Monday. Our doctor sent him for an urgent chest x ray as he knew Blair was leaving for Aussie on Sunday.
We didn't get any call so we thought things were fine.
Tonight my doctor phoned to say that the x ray showed up a 1.2cm nodule in his left lung and that he will need to go and get further x rays in Brisbane. Blair was a smoker for about 14 years, he gave up over 5 years ago.
Just when we thought we were on the way - what the fuck is the universe sending me?
It just has to be fine, we are finally doing it.
It'll be nothing.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
My Plate is Full
I have so much going on.
Blair is off to Brisbane next Sunday to find work. He is staying with my brother and hopefully has a couple of leads to start him working.
I am stoked but also very apprehensive about it.
Blair is my best friend, my soul mate, my business partner in raising our kids.
We have never been apart more than four nights in our ten years together.
He will come home for Christmas and then go back, find a house and a car etc and then we will head over end of March after my best mate's wedding.
I really want to go straight to the Sunshine Coast but as he has the contacts in Brisbane we may have to settle there first.
(Anyone know of any carpenter positions in the Maroochydore area???)
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My sister had her MRI, the results came back "nothing sinister" and then five days later she was phoned to come back and have an ultrasound because there was a growth on her right thyroid. She went for that on Thursday, got a student who did a crap job (including telling her that everything looked fine to her and she didn't even know why they'd bothered to ask her back!!). Then the Radiologist phoned her back the next day and said that the student had done a crap job and that she needed to come back on Tuesday morning, have it done properly by himself and he would be performing a biopsy then and there if he sees anything on her thyroid. I couldn't believe it. That is one of the first things you know as a student of anything, you don't give any prognosis or diagnosis, especially during the ultrasound. You wait for a professional to lood over the results. She's scared but optimistic.
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Work has been shite.
There are things happening in the upper ranks with the boss from up north and his shit face wife. Looks like they are staging a take over of the company and that is going to suck arse.
Update later
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I graduated from counselling.
I have come a long long way in my self esteem and I am coping with things on a whole new level. My outlook on things has improved beyond sight.
Summary to follow
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Blair is off to Brisbane next Sunday to find work. He is staying with my brother and hopefully has a couple of leads to start him working.
I am stoked but also very apprehensive about it.
Blair is my best friend, my soul mate, my business partner in raising our kids.
We have never been apart more than four nights in our ten years together.
He will come home for Christmas and then go back, find a house and a car etc and then we will head over end of March after my best mate's wedding.
I really want to go straight to the Sunshine Coast but as he has the contacts in Brisbane we may have to settle there first.
(Anyone know of any carpenter positions in the Maroochydore area???)
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My sister had her MRI, the results came back "nothing sinister" and then five days later she was phoned to come back and have an ultrasound because there was a growth on her right thyroid. She went for that on Thursday, got a student who did a crap job (including telling her that everything looked fine to her and she didn't even know why they'd bothered to ask her back!!). Then the Radiologist phoned her back the next day and said that the student had done a crap job and that she needed to come back on Tuesday morning, have it done properly by himself and he would be performing a biopsy then and there if he sees anything on her thyroid. I couldn't believe it. That is one of the first things you know as a student of anything, you don't give any prognosis or diagnosis, especially during the ultrasound. You wait for a professional to lood over the results. She's scared but optimistic.
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Work has been shite.
There are things happening in the upper ranks with the boss from up north and his shit face wife. Looks like they are staging a take over of the company and that is going to suck arse.
Update later
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I graduated from counselling.
I have come a long long way in my self esteem and I am coping with things on a whole new level. My outlook on things has improved beyond sight.
Summary to follow
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Monday, October 6, 2008
The Life and Times of a Paperclip
Ever wondered where a paperclip has been?
All of you that work with paperwork must, at some point in the working week, use a paperclip.
You buy them by the little plastic bag full.
They are shiny and new in your paperclip holder.
You attach one to a cheque.
You send that cheque to a creditor.
The creditor then puts it in their paperclip holder.
And so on.
Some get unbent and used to clean out nails.
Used as tooth picks.
Others travel and travel, may end up in a bank.
Where is the final resting place of a paperclip or is it destined to travel the world forever?
Some literally will travel from country to country.
I would love to microchip one and see where it goes in winter.
All of you that work with paperwork must, at some point in the working week, use a paperclip.
You buy them by the little plastic bag full.
They are shiny and new in your paperclip holder.
You attach one to a cheque.
You send that cheque to a creditor.
The creditor then puts it in their paperclip holder.
And so on.
Some get unbent and used to clean out nails.
Used as tooth picks.
Others travel and travel, may end up in a bank.
Where is the final resting place of a paperclip or is it destined to travel the world forever?
Some literally will travel from country to country.
I would love to microchip one and see where it goes in winter.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
How to Manage Stress
Remember that it takes 48 muscles to frown and only 5 to slap the crap out of someone!!
One of my biggest ailments in stress.
It plays havoc with my health, my emotional wellbeing and my weight.
I have many daily stresses and they are big ones.
My counsellor pointed out to me last night that she has one major stress at the moment that she is dealing with. I am dealing with at least 8 and I have to do something about it and quickly - or die. Seriously, it is that grim.
I am currently working through ways to limit the stress.
You can help.
Give me your ideas about possible solutions. Pick one from the list, two, or all of them if you're keen.
A problem shared is a problem halved.
My Current Stress List:
1. Wife of Big Boss, lives up north, controls all of the accounts, constantly fucks up, gets stressed at me for not doing things her way and then I have to redo things correctly later on. She will not talk to me on the phone, will only email.
2. Workshop administrator leaves tomorrow, I will be doing two jobs for at least a month.
3. Blair gets his license back in 8 weeks. We will get through Xmas and then have to get him back to work. Then have the stress of childcare, along with the cost and for how long?
4. Getting to Aussie, we need to get there, do we send Blair to work here and save slowly and get nowhere fast or do we do it hard in the New Year, send him to Aussie say February to get a job and then we get there a lot sooner?
5. Sister, can I please have some advice on how to stop worrying about the MRI results that she doesn't get until Oct 6th?
6. Finances, struggling to get by on our one wage, really struggling.
7. Kids, they are missing me hugely. Ben especially. It's hard!!
One of my biggest ailments in stress.
It plays havoc with my health, my emotional wellbeing and my weight.
I have many daily stresses and they are big ones.
My counsellor pointed out to me last night that she has one major stress at the moment that she is dealing with. I am dealing with at least 8 and I have to do something about it and quickly - or die. Seriously, it is that grim.
I am currently working through ways to limit the stress.
You can help.
Give me your ideas about possible solutions. Pick one from the list, two, or all of them if you're keen.
A problem shared is a problem halved.
My Current Stress List:
1. Wife of Big Boss, lives up north, controls all of the accounts, constantly fucks up, gets stressed at me for not doing things her way and then I have to redo things correctly later on. She will not talk to me on the phone, will only email.
2. Workshop administrator leaves tomorrow, I will be doing two jobs for at least a month.
3. Blair gets his license back in 8 weeks. We will get through Xmas and then have to get him back to work. Then have the stress of childcare, along with the cost and for how long?
4. Getting to Aussie, we need to get there, do we send Blair to work here and save slowly and get nowhere fast or do we do it hard in the New Year, send him to Aussie say February to get a job and then we get there a lot sooner?
5. Sister, can I please have some advice on how to stop worrying about the MRI results that she doesn't get until Oct 6th?
6. Finances, struggling to get by on our one wage, really struggling.
7. Kids, they are missing me hugely. Ben especially. It's hard!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
The Couch is Being Repossessed
My darling counsellor and giver of great couch time is leaving to live in Australia.
I only have 3 more sessions left.
Woe is me.
I feel like I'm getting there but I would love a little longer. Just have to make quality time of it.
Why do people drive through pea soup fog with their lights off?? WTF is up with that?
I only have 3 more sessions left.
Woe is me.
I feel like I'm getting there but I would love a little longer. Just have to make quality time of it.
Why do people drive through pea soup fog with their lights off?? WTF is up with that?
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