FUCK!!

No other title really helps to yell out other than that one at the moment.
I am in the shit financially and thought I had a way out but this morning I had my phone temporarily disconnected.
I have never had this happen in my life and the bill is large due to two changes of address in recent months.
I am positive that I can make my way out of it somehow but right now, when I have moved away from my life... the phone was a last connection to people that I miss and love.
2013 really is going to be a year of change for me and possibly that is going to have to mean no phone.
I am trying to be diplomatic but I just want to run out in the street and lie on the footpath crying and screaming FUCK IT... until someone comes and takes me away to a padded cell.