Tuesday, September 29, 2009

What About Me?

It isn't fair ..... *think Shannon Noll*

I'm in a bit of a funk.

I have not one reason to feel funky like this.

But I do.

And it sucks.

Life would be so much easier if we didn't have these human minds.

I think I'd prefer to be a lioness, who has a much higher risk of death and starvation, but doesn't have to fuck around with thought processes and over analytical shite going on in her head. She is born, grows up with the guidance of the pride. She then hardens up and deals with life. She mates, has cubs, and does what her mother did, what her mother's mother did, what her mother's mother's mother did and so on....

She doesn't ponder if she's sailing her soul's ship in the right direction.

She doesn't worry about her self image.

She doesn't fear social interaction.

She doesn't procrastinate or she dies.

She doesn't decide to go off and try a new career as an elephant.

She doesn't choose to put herself first, or last.

She just lives her predetermined path in life and that is the way nature intended it.

I need to find my inner feline.


Ute said...

i am so sure we're soul sisters.

the shit that is going on in my head is what will lead me to my early grave...not life in general itself.

yesterday was my day of feeling like moosh... don' worry, tomorrow is another day, and it will all appear to be better. *hopes* =)

AlleyCat said...


I think putting on some dancing music & waving your hands in the air like you just dont care might help......or not. I've never seen my cat dance. I'm not even going to type what popped into my brain next, although I should, because that would make you laugh....... think about tongues & what cat's do with them.

Yeah I know I'm just being silly. Sometimes silly helps.


Lynda said...

Don't think you are any different! We all get into a funk I think and all wonder could we do better/should we do different/will the kids forgive me/blah blah blah...

It's called being human :)

Chris H said...

Yep, I will join you in your funk... oh no... you are joining me eh? LOL
No advice... just hang in there and hope life gets better.

Anonymous said...

my inner child is saying.......................




To Band or not To Band? said...


Kate said...

Reooow! Get on that cat suit and get to work!

Kentucky Fried Bride said...

It sounds like you need to be still. Ask what your body needs and write down the answer you hear in your head. Then ask what your soul needs. Go on, ask away. The answer will resonate in your head and then it's up to you to roar and start making your life the life you want.

underOvr (aka The U) said...

Hi Jules,

"She just lives her predetermined path in life and that is the way nature intended it."

It's in our nature to be human and unlike the lioness, we have options that are the variables of life. I believe each of us has purpose Jules and I believe you have a purpose too. It's always been there, dormant, restless and waiting for identification.

It may have begun as a childhood thought that eventually got dismissed or a familiar thought you later recognized but it's always the same quiet thought.

Don't allow yourself to be beaten with guilt because you haven't done it yet. Look at the possibility of achieving this, your desire and purpose; realize that you have the capacity within you to do it.

I know it's easy for me to say this, it's not my life we're talking about. Don't be so hard on yourself Jules; cut yourself a little slack and breathe.

Then go roaring through the jungle (purpose-driven) and kick some ass!


Spiky Zora Jones said...

Jules: I've been in a funk for the last two weeks. It comes and goes. I think I need to smoke a doobie, drink some red wine..and have lots of sex. :0)

my friend has cancer and it has me crying most nights. I'm so afraid for her. And I'm the one in a funk...I should be ashamed on myself.

I am.

Love is touching souls. And I love her. Maybe that's why my soul aches.

I want to be in the same pride as you...xxx

later honey.

Anonymous said...

This is so true. I have had a similar funk for a while now. Hang in there, m'lady. There are some benefits to not being a lioness. Yes, it's complicated but at least you don't have to worry about being eaten!


Middle Child said...

Sounds good to me - I have a couple of sisters that a female lioness could make run very fast - but as it is i can't run much now and they can - sigh!
Oh Jules - this is the sort of stuff that drives you crazy when you hit Menopause - except then you get really hot all the time and sweat a lot - and everyone points it out - I wonder do animals go through the change - or just we humans -

Steph said...

((hugs)) You need to learn mediation or do something relaxing to switch off your brain for a few hours.

m said...

I think finding your inner feline comes with age. That's a shame because I'll soon best I can be at age 90.

Blasé said...

I saw a Lioness today at the Zoo!

FREEDOM said...

hey Jules

Havnt been visiting your blog since you stopped blogging earlier this year. Had kept you on my watch list and dnt know why but checked your blogg tonight good to see u up and blogging again. Love the pics of your home